Saturday, March 26, 2011
Rowan the Wonder Boy
Hi. Have you seen my boy Rowan? I can't help but adore him. I think he's Rowan the Wonder Boy because he's SO good. He only wakes once at night (and sometimes he sleeps the whole night through like last night!), he smiles and coos all the time (even in his sleep), he usually only cries if he's hungry or sleepy, and he's just a generally happy kid. I couldn't ask for a better 2nd kid. I think God knew we already had alot going on when he decided to send us this little boy.
Lately I've been thinking TONS about his upcoming surgery. Until this week I've blocked it out of my mind. In my head I figured I'd been through 2 surgeries before with Rylie, I know how to handle the feeling of handing your baby over to the nurse and trusting that they'll bring them back a little bruised and broken but generally ok. Well this week our little friend Patrick had surgery. He had the same surgery, at the same hospital that Rowan will have in less than a month. I've been forced to face the fact that even if I don't want to think about it, my boy will have major surgery. Stitches I can see (from ear to ear), a fair amount of swelling and probably visible blood (when they take the bandages off). Far from the slightly swollen and red eyes we had with Rylie.
I faced it, worried about it, cried about it and after all that I'm realizing that I WILL be ok. HE will be ok. Patrick is recovering so wonderfully I can't help but to be encouraged that Rowan will do the same. I feel very blessed that I have a friend like Karen that will give me the low down on things to bring to the hospital, things to be aware of and just the reassurance that we will all be just fine. Until then I'm going to hold my baby tighter, gaze into his pretty blue eyes and kiss his sweet velvety head as much as possible.